Friends and foes,
I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW >_<! I haven't posted in over a month. oops. I've been very busy and it's been a stressful month!
A few months ago, the Duck Game here at Cottey was put on HOLD. Uh hi. This is bullshit.
If you know anything about Cottey, you'll know that it's HUGE on traditions, that is one of the largest selling points they come at you with when they're vying for your attention when you're applying to all your colleges senior year.
Needless to say, that infuriated most of the women I know and live with.
It's frustrating being told when you're a senior, with pranking being one of the best parts hands down of being a senior, and you aren't allowed to do it anymore, you must not prank, freshmen can say duck. It's a kick in the gut when you weren't allowed to do it last year, and when you finally get to the point where you can do it you're told not to.
So we tried in every way to revolt, without our senior class president behind us, and people blaming OUR hall for it, we decided to let sleeping dogs lie. Things still go down, but we know that they'll only tighten the grip on our throats if we try anything >:(
Shmaaaanywho.
I have decided that I am not returning to Cottey next semester. It was nearly one of the HARDEST decisions of my LIFE.
I am in love with all of my friends here, they mean more to me than they will ever know and I would go down for any one of them. But my financial aid got screwy, and I just don't have the funding to come back next semester. Which stinks :( I am frustrated and my feelings are hurt. I want to stay here badly, but I was only left with one choice, that being, leave Cottey and study back home.
The hardest part was that I was given only a week to make the decisions. 5 days to decide where i'm going to be in 2 months. Awesome.
I had to tell them by friday because I had to pull out of the france trip D: and it was $400 cheaper to pull out on friday, than on the next monday.
I didn't want to think about it or deal with it but I had to decide in a week and the frustrating thing was that I knew I was left with just one option, I just didn't want to have to face it.
So that's where my life is right now. I am going home December 16 for good. I'll be going to college at home, and working, hopefully moving out within the year. We'll see where the year takes me though, and what happens.
I still have my goals, and I know i'll end up there some day.
I'm just taking an alternative route to get there :)
love love love,
-Ashley
(Also, check out my tumblr if you want, www.smashleyyxo.tumblr.com)
